Living on what you write ...

Means a dream here in Iran. Normally writing will have punishment or at least miseries for the writer. Economically speaking the middle class families who are always the customers including most of intelectuals and people who are in love of the literature can never afford a book a month may be some of'em can but they prefer a sandwich than that or they might not like the new writings specially poetry but the fact is mostly people can not live on writing (You can't go further than 1500 issues that's the law).
Journalists are the exception to the rule as always but journalism does not consider as a profitable business around here...
Worst case are the governmental poetry , Leaders preachers, Oldies, military lovers, Religouse money poets which are always shown and advertised on TV , turned the whole society against what the people beleive as apoet character - Lazy Dirty Old chatterbox - .
Many of us got killed just as they wanted to prove the persian literature as a libertador and society informer.More brave they were than us, more purified , more poet they were (Mokhtary, Pooyandeh Hallowed be thy name ).
But now blogging less brave less gifted it is completely impossible to live on what you write further more you must pay to the publishers in order to publish a book. I am an Electronic engineer the weiredest job for a poet.I see proffesional poets with jobs such as tools shop owner, Advetising assistant,Computer specialist and web programmer.
So many chats to say I Found a beutiful report about the problems and efforts to live on poetry in US. You might find it beutiful. ( They are not in a good mood but better than what we have here)

Living on love, or words to that effect

Where will you start the poem ?

After so long long time of not blogging in English and just after the time that Mr.W started nagging about Iraq, Lonely Ali is blogging the way again!
Where must we start ?

" Oh !
Wish freedom was a tiny song
as tiny as the bird's throat singing "

Freedom , Everybody is talking and were talking about around here Specially my beloved poet BAMDAD.I myself do some poetry about that but I always ask myself what freedom means for real.Tellin' the truth whenever the word freedom comes into my mind I imagine the scene :

" Mellow grass , wet just after the rain in a green country
not mine but not for anybody else
couple of 6 years old child running in barefoot "

You see ?
It is quiet nice when you talk about it but when you come close it vanishes and disapear ...
Blogging at 5PM after the ofice work the lonly Ali is never happy about his world.He is unhappy about his country ,the gone land, He is unhappy about his people and he is unhappy about his world , Where are we going? he asks himself Palestinians kill the Israealies and Israealies kill palestinians but when will the war stop ? When will the inocent killing stop ? When will be a day with no terrorist and no anti-terrorist, no Bush no Bin Laden Day ?
Will we be alive to see the day ?
Will the day come ever ?
I remember the time that I were in grade 2 or 3 of primary school, and we were to write about the man that we wanted to be in future.I wrote the composition about a machine and myself as the operator. The machine which can make kindness and love , and can cure death and sorrow.teacher cried and told me " You will learn things when you get bigger ". I am bigger now , as the operator of the machine I type the kindness and I am trying to cure the death and sorrow . The dark deepen and deepen the kindness means nothing and the death stays alive horrifying and humillating. I Cry, as the teacher did.

Good bye president we want it more deep than a reform !

He can do it , He can not , He is the man of the fate , Do you beleive in fate I do believe , In persian stories most of the people are following their dictated destiny their written future , It was to kill his father for Odipus to kill his son for Rostam and to be humillated and dragged for Khatami.
I am with him, The history is with him, History beleives and does many thing to the heroes but He never forget them !

...

I am always curios about the key words that people use to find my site Many of'em was quiet surprising but this one was the weirdest sombody has typed
" how can i write a letter to my friend my english is not good specially my gramerwrite letter to my friend because english is not my first languh " in google

and he was directed to my site ...

Inspection ?

We do have a joke about a truck driver who wanted to fuck a hitch hiker , He picked up in the way .
" My gal , I hate fart ! You fart and I will fuck you ! OK ?" he asked, Noway the poor gal accepted and get on the car. in the middle of the way the man felt horny He asked " Are you farting up there ?" ; " No No , Please No I did not " the gal answered. Some minute later He asked again and the girl denied. Til they have reached to a Landscape with a sunset and a river, they get off the truck and sat on ablanket , the girl was in her sexiest mood, full breasts and hour glass body . It is the time the driver said to himself then he said to the poor girl " AT LAST YOU FARTED !" and started fucking her ! This Iraq inspection joke remind me of our joke. Mr W do want to fuck Iraq after the inspection or befor the inspection he is just waiting for the right place and moment . No matter if Sadam fart or does not fart

HO HO ! IT is a lot of fun being on MSNBC !

They have found me ! They see me ! The Mr. W's brothers and the great great Bill the one opened the gates of WINDOWS (registered a -very profitable- trade mark),
One who wrote the essay, Thank you ! It is unexplainable how it is amazing being seen ! I updated my English weblog for an average of once a week But How many times a week do you update your persian blog ?

12 Killed in Hebron ...

I am sorry . deeply sorry !
Not only for those were killed in Israel but also for those who will be killed in Iraq !
Those who were killed in Halabche !
Those who were killed in Khoramshahr ! Abadan ! in Shalamche !
Sorry for the running volunteers of the mine fields !
Deeply sorry for the 9/11 inocent Americans !
Sorry for the wars !
Dear civilization who will come after. am writing for you . We could not fight the devility inside ourselves, We defeated the miseries of enviroment the horrifying animals we escaped the dark jungles, We climbed the highest mountains and saw the stars beyond the eternity but we could never defeat our inhumanity we killed each other and killed each other and killed each other and got lost.
We were good guys ! We made stories ! We described the world we wanted we wished ! But the destiny was written ! the fire inside ! the joy of killing others burned our rules and brain , legality and lawfullness , The more we loved things , The more powerful we got the less we were able to love others and the more we started to hate!
To hate other races (different colors, different shapes of living features called human) , To hate other beliefs , To hate others at all and to love ourself and ourself and ourself !
And the inevitable selfishness ended what could be a paradise !
We are lost ! We are dead the most throbbing death ! we earn it ! No complaint at all !
Try to live better than we lived !

Best Regards
Ali The Swallow

HASHEM AGHAJARY !

Do they write his name like this or do they write in another way (e.g. Aghajari ) ?
You did not hear them about him a lot did you ?
He is a university professor and he is going to be executed for nothing ( Some times I am ashamed to be an Iranian ) Help him !
Go to this link ....

She was of us gone !

Russia ! Mother Russia! Me not happy . Know thy sorrow! Know how deep the grief was! Do not cry mother Russia Think about the happy day and growing men

Will a new war happen ever ?

Tarkovski I was watching a rare film I have never seen of him Ivan childhood the name was...
People fighting a war russians were trying to beat nazis of the country movie was chasing a kid named Ivan he was always dangling between his far diaries of childhood paradise and the chaos of his mother and sister being slaughtered by the Nazis and his new life as a front line spy for russians he was always talking of his destiny for a revenge but he always dream of the good old days of childhood, Meanwhile he was accompanied by a kind heart young officer and a lout hero captain. The captaing got killed the boy got lost and the film was abruptly cut to the scene of a berliner office being investigated by the young officer, In the files there he found suddenly his friend's name in one of the black files of the prisoners been murdered in the office dungeon ...
He asks himself
" Shot !
Hanged !
Shot !
Hanged !
Will it be another war after this corruption ?"

I found it funny to answer , Put it here for you to laugh

Hehe It is getting cold here !

I caught a bad cold , But that's not the point now !, I did not want to make fun of Mr. W I am sure, and I did not want to inform yoiu about the prostitution stats jumping up during these years in Iran. Of course I was not intended to talk politics about my country !
I just want to inform you again that the earth all around is getting darker and darker we must wait for the night to start !
That's not the point ?
you are getting upset ?
you don't like this blog ?
forgive me I am just a little boy and I caught a bad cold ?

When I come to the technology specially in my field I see Americans as pioneers and wise guys the wise guys of super plays in micro chips and semiconductors the intels and packards. When I come to the litrature to my beloved Hemingway the welknown movie makers of the century to the briliant ideas of democracy and freedom...
Most of the time I ask myself how do they let such a stupid guy to rule for them ?

Saw in the hole of a dead soldiar's eyes
"devilish the life
How dare you accept the worst way; the death you were were ranning away from ! "

God bless America...

I am not a newyorker , Of course I am not , I mean not only I do not like the city but also I am not very keen on the state and also the country. I hate its tall buildings specially those twin towers always singing god bless America ...
What a funny word ? It would be fucking funny if I tell you about Imperialism? will it just give you a special feeling like being bored in a park bench sitting near a nagging oldy talking about great powers and good old days of the cold war ?
You know man ! Thanks god It just does not bother me what you think about what I write here. I surely am not a beleiver specially in Islam but when those fucking sky scrappers felt down it just gave me a feeling like relaxation you know what I mean ? It was as there is nobody inside as it is just an empty monument or statue falling apart in dust and cloud No I was never sorry about that ...
when you are thinking about an accidant with about 3 thousand dead bodies inside, It will make you cry goin to CNN I lit a candle cried and shocked for the orphan children and separated lovers but I never Do never felt sorry about Newyork ...
Looking back to what it is now I will suggesst to let the dust be there and not to build another one, I love the cowboy bleeding of the bullet in his heart, It will teach the lonely Sherief to be more careful about what he does

:) : :(

the hell of a life smilling ...
gone for the way
but asked
will you cry or let it pass ?

Expeling militants family !

I am not a politician , Neither a human right activist nor of those kind hearted who weep for a drop of blood . I have seen murder and blood during my life all. Expel is something rather easy comparing to the bloods shed for means of different wars I have seen during my 25 damn_years life. But hearing the news I just remember another story There was a time we have seen a serial bloody killer in Tehran. He wanders around driving a cab and kill and rape the lonley female passengers he picked up mostly at night. papers were calling him THE NIGHT BAT. Society was damn distressed. They could not beleive that ( He has killed 23 women ). Society were in anger, red! red! red! you know what I mean . execution was not a good punishment they say. Not only they hanged him for 8 times but also they whip him for about 150. they beat him, insult him but after that and after that the anger remained , and the problem remained unsolved. the next guys appeared in Mashad killing other 13 females....
The poor guy was mad he needed psycological special cares instead of special punishments, We did not understand that I must admire that it would take a lot of time for our society to accept these french intellectuality. The brilliance of our country is its traditions may our people choose to stay as they are But Israel is another story they are mostly european or Us citizen immigrants they must have known this, these kind of Punishment is always a revenge not a solution ....
They are in worst condition. they do have nobody to punish ( even a corp ). They are sufering dramatic economical problems regarding the suicide bombers beside they are under pressure of the jews around the world not to step back. They are angry and they want to punish someone and then the damn thing starts again just as happened before to Japanese immigrants in US during WW2 they punish the family for the boys sin...
Will it be a remedy ? further more will it be a solution ? OF COURSE NOT !
Is it justified, legal, propper ? If you want my opinion, It is a war and it is a funny story to talk about the devilities happen through, I hate both, I hate the Israel militarists ( I AM NOT A NAZI ) and I hate arab militia ( I AM NOT ANTI-ARAB )I just think that a new way must be considered for the problem ...

It smells a Rat !

BBC is reporting that federal investigstors of US DEA found a connection among the Hizbollah and drug traffickers in US.Media ! Media !
To me it seems a little bit hand made. you know what I mean? I got a little bit suspecious about what is happening during these years in media. I am not sure but reading the report It leads me to a question WHY ARE THEY ALL HAPPENING AS ISRAEL WANTS ?
the first answer might be easy "THEY WERE RIGHT! ARABS ARE STUPID" but you know as Sherluke always say something very much logical seems a little bit suspecious.
The second choice would be "OH NO! THAT'S JEWS TRICKERY" no mean I would beleive in that .I am not arab. never ever wanted to be. living with muslims showed me that a fundamentalist can do anything, and when I tell you anything I would mean anything ...

But you know, Drug trufficking in US and channelling the money to Hizbullah (The only Arab militia which is not considered as terrorist accept by brother US and sister Israel) ? I made my decision , I won't beleive that. That seems to me a little bit funny !

But if a day I change my mind I will go to the first choice arabs are stupid!

Drug money linked to Mid-East groups

Tired today as always !

You know what does hiss mean? Keep quiet ...
You know who is always asking us to keep dark ?
You know how does it feel when a freind of yours is to kill his blog area, news paper, magazine?
freind of mine ? I did not even see his blog once, but he was a friend of mine who he write is a friend of mine.
He asked us not to tell more ...
I will not ...
As a remedy for his friends and as an appreciation for a man who did his job and will come back soon I will reffresh his previous address in hees.blogspot.com

(He is not there anymore it is just redirection to his persian letter about the pressure on him to stop blogging)

Thanks TIM !

Reading the master essay written by TIM JUDAH with the name Sullen Majority got a little bit surprised of how much a proffessional can get close to what is happening in a society like IRAN.

Mr W's loneliness …

I am Happy to say that countries around the world are paying attention to my opinion, Happier to say that Mr.W feels a little bit lonesome now. Good guy is feeling alone just at high noon will he attack back or just wait for more allies? As always money talks …
First choice wait for UN inspectors to go and have a visit and then attack Iraq after the inspector's rejection ( They would be rejected very soon ) but who says that the big big fat Arabs would come with him in the new war and even EU.
Second choice attack Iraq alone as I said before It will lead us to a new question; How many more Wars can the sweet uncle Sam support? His cozy allies will not even think about paying for a cowboy war like that, how many bullets does have the sheriff in his gun? One for Iraq? OK he is dead now! but after that will he have enough to defend himself? I am not a man of business and stocks but the history says even the biggest countries can not afford a war with the world.
Third choice? There is no third choice. the choices are limited for cowboys.

Juke Box Love Song
from The Collected Poems of
Langston Hughes


I could take the Harlem night
and wrap around you,
Take the neon lights and make a crown,
Take the Lenox Avenue busses,
Taxis, subways,
And for your love song tone their rumble down.
Take Harlem's heartbeat,
Make a drumbeat,
Put it on a record, let it whirl,
And while we listen to it play,
Dance with you till day--
Dance with you, my sweet brown Harlem girl.

Dear Langston
I am not sure if it is legal or not. I am not a theif ! I went to Randomhouse and I saw you smilling there standing for customers.You can take my translation free instead. I would not care ...
Yours
Ali

P.S: It was great langston ! How did you do that ?

Nice weather isn't it ?

To be good and do good was not the only thing that they taught us in school, That was a heart beating sense when they were asking you about your religious matter. How amny prayers for the day? Do you have an undone prayer ? have you said your prayers today? Does your mother use scarf in front of strangers even at home? What did you see in your dream last night?
Quests and questions all day and night was the thing we were facing during our childhood. we were not the guy they wanted. Nobody was, at least in our relatives and friends but we were to take off their impression and jobs as we are just like them. Today it is a better chance for youngsters to play their own trumpet still there are some of the people nagging about the good old days of war and sharia but generally speaking it is a better condition at all. releigon studies has decreased in schools noaday. formally speaking they teach what we were taught but it is much more easier and poluralistic (OH what a word I hope I had my spell checker with me) new brothers of ours mostly 15 to 18 make fun of what we were to understand and accept....

Will they attack iraq ?

Everybody is askin himself about .when will be the attack? and how it will be ? Today It was mentioned in CNN that they have found Bin Laden attacking command and they have found chemical weapon's instruction in their videos found in Afghanistan, Now they are discussing the attack to Iraq regarding the would be chemical weapon installations in kurdish area cooperating with Alqaeda.It just gives me a feelin like those cartoons shown on TV after lunch. a bunch of bad guys and a militaria of heros who will save the world. I do not want to interfere with what the politicians are intersted in, but isn't it time for a more responsible talking with the world ?

Just shit ....
Read this down here linkin you to Newyork times

Officers Say U.S. Aided Iraq in War Despite Use of Gas
" The American intelligence officers never encouraged or condoned Iraq's use of chemical weapons, but neither did they oppose it because they considered Iraq to be struggling for its survival, people involved at the time said in interviews."

I ...

Was one when the Islamists revoluted
Was two when quarrels began
Was three when we were
"on war"
They said
Was ten when we were defeated
"As usual"
History said
Through ten to five and over
Remember I just the gray
"Governing the Islamic way"
They said
Was eighteen when the light
fast
came and gone
As it comes
Fast

Am
-Don't know now-
Am old
"and bloody as me"
History said

How far are we ?

Am askin' myself what the hell is happening to us?
Happy none of us can be, Mostly bothered by economy and disgusted about politics , How far will this shit go ?

Chatting with a swedish jew 50, He was telling me that Sharon is doing a nice job in Palestine; "Protecting Israel". Told him "I am teriffied ! When a middle aged man from the heart of democracy says so ! What are the Palestinian youngesters might do?"

"Where are we going?" He asked ....

Hey Hey We are still living here !

Iraq , They say they would attack then would be our turn ?
I do not like war . it is just a way of wasting people but living here I am smelling the horrifying war right from the front side . They say that our weblogs would be history , People of the future read them and read them and judge about our century and nation, good for them . They even say that the information and security councils of different powers test and read blogs and emails to predetermine what will happen next good for me (I love visitors specially from the outsiders), So Dear daddy history please index this little note in your library and show it to whom it may concern "THERE WOULD BE A GREAT WAR".
Haleluja ! Here I see, I say,and dear daddy history do not get it easy it would not be of those kind o sentimental, user friendly ones .That would be a real one! Just of those fierce wars which will need a lot of years to be forgotten. Many people will die westerner and easterners. Comment for the securities " SUGGESST the VIPs TO STAY OUT OF THIS SHIT !", tell'em this would be a real one The winner and the defeated would be the loosers. The winner would be the one who stayed out.

Do not look down on me up your nose I am 25 years old and I saw six wars happening in my vicinity ! four still to be continued !

Was here a day...

It is a bit risky talking about the "Axis of evil" while your country is one of those...
When I was young I've heard about the word axis, It was just a word mean as the defeated countries WW2 As far as I can remember the other countries were called allies...
Read somewhere that everything is getting changed and repeated during the history the latter time the funny way ...
When you are living in a funny axis of evil and you are waiting for the funny US alies to come to fight you back to what god knows it just is like a funny feeling as I have

Talking about a nation...

Nowadays , It is funny to say "We Iranians" you know ?
Most of us do not wanna be identified when we are online , less and less people are choosing names with their nationality mentioned. No problem it might be for the new world of technics. No land is identified ...
But telling you the truth I have a chinese feeling about the land. We are the crossing bodies, very very few years we live Optimistically speaking 80 and then the big brother will call us up the sky.
When you are not sure if you are realy believing in the big brother or not. you are in need of a big brother who can live for years at least as long as decades you live. it's a comforting feeling being happy about a brother who was alive when you had not been borned and will stay young while you are getting old and will live for a long long time after that ...
If I felt alone and I started telling sad about what happens around in persian or in English remind me in persian or in English that I do Have a big brother not in the sky but on the ground ...
I have an injured, dirty, old but kind heart brother who lived and will live forever ...
I am IRANIAN

Talking about a language ...

When you have the chance to write in a foreign language, Specially when you do not know it as much as it gets close to what you realy mean . It is just a bothering feeling about being mistaken or misunderstood , I learnt English in chatrooms It is not my favorite language it has never been , It gives me a feeling like being forced to have something sweet , easy and sweet . It is somehow easy and it is not. When you talk it is just a smooth feeling of words you experience ( I am not sure it might be a matter of knwledge ) but it gives me a feeling like carelessness about what I am talking about. I am not sure if I would have a English speaking visitor for my weblog but I would be happy if I can have any comments.

Tell me about the gone land daddy ...

" There was a land between the oceans , High mountains above the sea and the shiniest sky ever above all ...
Then comes the darkness as comes the night . the long long everlasting night forever , dragons came and demons...
no beauty, no rule, no fame .... "